Saturday, August 21, 2010

It's my monthly freak out time.

Yup, 3 days before AF is scheduled to show I am started to become a crazy baby wanting lady!  I have all kinds of symptoms of pregnancy that may or may not be real.  I hate it.  I just want this too be done!  It's almost a relief when AF shows because at least I go back to my normal self instead of a baby obsessed goon.

Having said that...I really do feel like this may be our month.  I do think I have several symptoms and though I am hesitant to say it, I feel pregnant.  But then you doubt yourself.  It doesn't help that I was 4 weeks late before a positive pregnancy test showed for Sara.  Hopefully this doesn't prove true for the next pregnancy.  I am just really anxious to finish our family, to have it complete and know this is my whole family and set goals together.

In other news, work is going well.  I love the hours I work.  I love that I don't really work with anyone.  I just go there, do my job and go home to my real life.  Some people I bet think I am lame because I have little ambition for a career, but I just don't.  Since I can remember I have just wanted to be a mommy.  That is the "job" I want to excel at and put my whole heart into.  A career would just get in the way.  I have my sad little job where I still get to be a mommy all day except for the last 2 hours. 

My sister is coming down in December and I am getting excited!  I love her like WOAH!  She is my sisterpants and need to have some sucka time.

November is the 49ers@Cardinals game.  Now that football season has started I am way more excited about that!!  A little trip for just Jeff and I=BLISS!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

My daughter = GENIUS!! My husband = AWESOME!

My daughter is easily going to be smarter than Jeff and I both!  She catches on SO quick!! I swear in the last week she has been putting together sentences so good!!  For a couple months I have been able to have a conversation with her if I led it.  She now takes the conversation where SHE wants!!  Last night Jeff told Sara "Didn't Mama make you a good dinner?"  And she said "Thanks Mom it yummy!"  I nearly cried!  She also understands emotions.  She says "I happy" and smiles and "I sad" and makes a sad face.  She also tells me whether her dolls are happy or sad or mad.  She also says she is scared when she is scared.  She truly amazes me.  Just this morning she counts some puzzle pieces she was playing with.  She previously only counted to 2, this time she counted to 4!  She always tries REALLY hard to say her ABC's but normally succeeds in only saying "e e r..e e r"  LOL!  She tries though.  It's great to see some of the repetitive play/learning paying off!

Sara is also the typical girly girl!  She LOVES to play with her baby dolls.  She feeds, puts to sleep, rocks and plays with them.  She is such a little Mama!  I love it!  I really appreciate that Jeff lets her be that way without ever wanted to make her boy like.  Some men do that.  He was made to be a daddy to a little girl.  She plays dress up and daddy even helps her.

Jeff is so awesome.  I swear.  Of course he has his moments when I am like seriously?  (who doesn't?)  But overall he is just a great person and husband.  He has been waiting up for me every night when I get off work.  Even when he tells me before I go that he will be sleeping...he isn't.  I really love that he misses me and enjoys my presence enough to sacrifice sleep (I get off at 11 and Jeff has to get up at 3:30-4 am) 

I can now admit I was terrified that JUST maybe Jeff and I wouldn't have the patience/want, to give Sara the attention she deserves.  I have heard other people say that since they work they maybe don't make dinner/play with their children as much/have the patience.  I am happy to say this doesn't seem to be the case for us.  Jeff is truly a partner in that he does what needs to be done around the house, as I do, to keep the house running well for the 3 of us and allows us to enjoy our time together.  Also I am only working between 25-30 hrs a week so that helps!  I don't feel like Sara, Jeff or I have suffered at all by me starting work.  Of course I miss the nights with my family but most of the time I am only missing 2 hours with Sara. 

Also I kinda made a friend at work.  She has a 4 yr old daughter.  She seems nice and around my age so that is cool.

TTC- I am now positive I ovulated, hopefully the sperm goes where it needs to so we can complete our family and finalize our future plans.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

It's been a CRAPPY week!

I haven't posted in a while because our A/C went out last Saturday night.  SUCK!!  It didn't get fixed till YESTERDAY!!  We had to spend a week in a hotel.  Not fun with a 2 yr old who is use to having her own space.  I don't like the way our landlord handled it.  For that reason and the fact that we are trying to save to buy a house we are looking to move to a cheaper place, preferably in Bullhead City, in January.

We have really been talking about the future lately.  We have decided to get serious about saving for a house.  We are planning to try to just make it with our 2 cars till we do that.  We had originally wanted to trade in our Cobalt and try to get a 4 door car or truck but my bestie recently gave us her car and we are going to fix that up and it's 4 doors.  We wanted to get something newer but, we figured we didn't want a bigger car payment than we already have when trying to buy a house. 

We are also *kinda* considering moving.  I know, anyone who knows us knows we go through this stage every once in a while and nothing happens.  And again, we may not move.  Jeff really wants to move up in his company and it isn't looking good for around here.  So we are considering maybe Phoenix.  I have always had mixed emotions about moving.  I am generally against it.  While I do think it would be exciting, nothing compares to being able to drive down the road to see most your family.  I really cherish how much time Sara gets to spend with her family.  I want her to grow up with her Grandparents and cousins and uncles.  Even though Phoenix is only 4 hrs away, it won't be as simple to just last minute decide to get together for a BBQ.  Who knows?  Jeff and I will figure it out.  I have full confidence in our family and what we can accomplish together.

On the TTC front, no A/C = no baby making :-(  I really hope I didn't ovulate this week.  I also screwed up on my Clomid so that is also a no go this month.  But Thursday I swear I felt some ovulation pain.  I never have noticed it before so I don't know for sure if that was it.  But we made sure to grab the opportunity as some would say.  Fingers crossed for a May baby!!!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Quick update!......that turned in a TOO long update.

Work is going great.  I am getting use to all the walking and feel like I am back in the flow of things.  It's weird seeing my Aunt at MY work though LOL!!  But it's cool. I think that working has actually been good for Jeff and I's relationship. It gives me a little more self worth. I feel like we enjoy our time together much more. I also feel like it makes me a better mother to Sara. I know it sounds strange. But I think that the time apart REALLY makes me make the time we have together fun filled and special. I really think she enjoys having her Daddy to her self to. That's something that is hard to do when I am always there. Now everyday they have there own time together.

Sara is doing great with the transition. Daddy is doing a great job with her.  I am so lucky to have such a clean husband!  I come home from work (which is generally from about 5:30 pm-11) he has made Sara dinner, bathe her, read to her and put her to bed AND the house, dinner mess, and dishes are all clean  He has made my transition to work incredibly smooth.  It means so much to me.  I truly got lucky!  And for those of you that are thinking "Well Jeff is a neat freak of course he would" let me add this, he has even been doing laundry AND folding it.  This is huge.  My husband has NEVER folded laundry.  He is spectacular in so ways but laundry has definitely been his krytonite.  But I was exhausted when I first started work so he stepped it up.

Jack was MIA for a day.  While Jeff was home the other night he had just gotten Sara to sleep and he let out Jack and off he went!  He just bolted!  Jeff didn't immediately go after him thinking he couldn't just leave Sara alone sleeping or not, just to go chase the dog.  Plus he normally will come back.  So he goes and gets the monitor and walks around as far as the monitor will let him.  Nothing.  I was at work for 3 more hours and currently we are a 1 car family so couldn't even wake Sara and take her to look for him.  So 3 hours later when I get home I go out and look, nothing.  So we went to bed thinking we will make a flyer in the morning.  The morning came, made a flyer.  All day nothing. No calls, no Jack.  I am seriously hoping someone did steal him just so that he isn't outside in the heat.  Finally around  7 that night someone called.  She had found him and taken him to a woman you runs a shelter out of her Golden Valley.  So the next morning we drove over to get him and was so happy to see, but he was filthy.  Jeff has really taken it personally that Jack ran off.  He is concerned that Jack doesn't like it here and has been doting on him like crazy.  He is such a softy.

My nephew Elijah just turned 1!!  His party is this Sunday I can't wait to see him eat cake and open presents.  I love 1st birthdays.

We got our 49ers@Cardinals tickets for MNF in November the other day!!  I CAN NOT wait!  I love me some football.  I am also looking forward to spend a day and night with just my husband.  I love him so much.  Then the end of December my sister and nephew are coming out for a visit.  I miss them like crazy.

On the TTC front, had AF, started my Clomid yesterday, will be trying VERY hard to fornicate (LMAO) every other day.  I WANT to get pregnant this month.